Wednesday, April 18, 2012

What it all means


The road to sustaining a healthy lifestyle is a tough journey when having a million and one things going on in life and when half of those things are new territory I have not come across to until now. I'm sure I'm not alone. I'm trying to avoid being complacent for too long with what I have improved on so far. I appreciate the new comments I've been recieving from people saying "You look great!" "Wow you've been losing some weight!" "Don't lose any more!" As hard as it is for me to take compliments I also have a hard time hearing how I don't have to keep going.

Yes I feel better health-wise, more limber, more comfortable in my clothes again, but I still have a goal to meet-122 lbs! Now that number has specific meanings to it than just expecting that life will be awesome when it's reached (that's not how life works!).

I remember my thesis group discussing questions this past weekend at our face-to-face meeting such as "What does getting to this goal all mean?" "Why do we get there?" "What will reaching this goal do for our lives?" "What do we expect out of it?"  That "122" for me is the visual embodiment of what the goal really means-gaining and habitually maintaining my internal physical aspects (having a strong immune system, good energy, system balance and sustainability)-a GREAT aging body. YES, AGING! Last year I had to accept the fact that my body had been undergoing changes because of age and that I had to make adjustments and pay more attention to my whole health lifestyle-the workouts, food intake and mental stability.

If you're reading this and you're still in your adolesence, I have to say you are practically invincible right now (if you're an active person of course!). I never had to pay much attention to what I ate, how much I ate or what type of workouts to do when I was in my teens and early 20s. It was eat, sleep, go to class, workout/sports, homework. Metabolism at its peak. How I miss that! I was blessed and fortunate to live without any sicknesses or conditions during those years and that sports became an important part of my life to keep doing.

The number is just a number. What it all means for me is taking care of myself in that it would influence others to do the same for them. It means getting rid of bad habits and sustaining better ones that it naturally becomes the lifestyle without even thinking twice like muscle memory. It means knowing I can get through any hard times because I have much to be grateful for and build upon. It means taking the life that God gave me and using it to serve others, to show others His ways and live as how Jesus lived. It's means doing this for something more to live for. My "something" is whatever God's will is for me, and getting to that number is just a small stepping stone because it's about learning the journey itself.

So what does it really mean for you?

Cheers w/ H2O - Quinallison

Friday, March 23, 2012

Staying In the Moment...

I'm taking one of our group member's advice about blogging/journaling "in the moment."  We all talk about how it is always important to stop and be grateful for what life has to offer.  I've spent the last year experiencing more moments than I wished to have where I sometimes forgot those important things.

This week I was reminded of focusing on my gratitude.  I've been feeling very energized and blessed.... physically, mentally, and emotionally.  Although I continue to face challenges with balancing exercise and healthy eating with the rest of my life commitments, I have really started to feel the effects of what healthy living and thinking really are about.  It feels like positivity has become second nature and part of the real me... not something I just need to keep in mind.  Our research has focused on the mental aspects of a healthy lifestyle, and there seems to be a cyclical effect to a healthy mind and healthy body.  To get the mind healthy.... the body must be healthy.  To keep the body healthy, the mind must be healthy.  It seems one cannot exist without the other.

I'm writing this while in the moment of sheer peacefulness.  Today at work, the morning has been chaotic, but there is just something bigger than me keeping my feet and my mind planted firmly, and I know this is the feeling of pure contentment.  I'm still beaming with pride after watching my son play his first tee ball game; I stopped to reflect on his life so far, and am proud of the wonderful child he is growing up to be.  I am still reflecting on the love I gave to my daughter yesterday when I realized that she is becoming more cognizant of the reality of her father's and my divorce... although I cannot take away her pain, I can be my best, and do my best to help lift her up and be her best;  she showered me with kisses today when we parted, just as I always do with her.  What a blessing!  And lastly, I have taken moments of gratitude for the many friendships I have been blessed with, some old, some new, and this week I reconnected with another friend after over 15 years.  Having positive people and support in my life and having the courage to distance myself from those less positive people has really started to show its effects, and this is a wonderful feeling worth embracing AND sharing.

One last Healthy Mind/Healthy Body note... looking forward to my first 8k trail run this weekend, and more training with my girl.... 44 days to our half marathon, and I can honestly say I can't wait!

mrv :)

Thursday, March 22, 2012

Q's cold-fighting woo-POW! Chunky Chicken and Vegetable Soup!

I mastered my own version of Chicken Soup! I was so excited by how well this turned out I had to share the recipe. I hope anyone who tries this will like it! =)



Q’s Cold-fighting  Woo-POW! Chunky Chicken and Vegetable Soup
Serves: 5-6 (or 2-3 very hungry people!)

This is my first variation in making my own chicken soup and adding ingredients that help fight a cold/flu. Make sure to use low-sodium broth (or make your own broth!).  I made it for my fiancĂ© while he was sick and it seemed like it helped him recover well. Active fighting ingredients from my research are the chicken broth, chicken, ginger, garlic, parsley, and kale (I cross-referenced a lot of websites!) Other great ingredients for variations could include spinach, spicy ingredients like cayenne pepper or chilies, red bell pepper, sweet potatoes, mushrooms, and barley. =) A great healthy dish as well. Take that evil bacteria!!

(I could have taken a better picture but these were my leftovers!)


Ingredients:

3 chicken breasts (without skin)
2 quarts Chicken broth (more or less depending on how much soup you want!)
2 cups water (more or less depending on your preference)
2 cups baby peeled carrots – diagonally sliced
½  large yellow onion - sliced
2 ½ cups chopped celery
½ turnip – cubed
5-8 slices of ginger (a lot of ginger if you’re sick!)
6-8 cloves of sliced garlic (more or less depending on your preference)
½ a bunch of kale (more or less depending on your preference)
¼ cup of either fresh chopped parsley or 1 tbsp of dry parsley
Kosher salt or salt-free seasoning to taste
Pepper to taste


Directions:

In a large stockpot (at least a 6 quart pot or larger depending on how much soup you’d like to cook), heat chicken breasts in chicken broth and water to a simmer or slightly boiling (low to  low-medium heat) for 25 minutes (or until chicken is thoroughly cooked. Remove chicken to cool and cut into pieces. Add carrots, onion, celery, turnips and garlic. Continue to simmer for 10-15 minutes (or more depending on how soft you want your veggies to be). After, add chicken back into pot and add ginger, parsley, salt and pepper.  If it looks like the broth has reduced, you can add more water or chicken broth. After 2-3 minutes, add kale. Let it continue to simmer on low for about 5 minutes or until kale is cooked through.

Monday, March 19, 2012

My Ever Graceful Inner Goddess

My inner goddess took a "nose dive" on me this weekend...I felt completely and utterly defeated, to the point where I almost threw my hands up and said "I'm done!" I'm not sure what the 'being done' with part would be, but I'm glad I didn't get that far in my thought.

I had a feeling coming on well before my weekend started that something was "up" with me, but with so much going on right now, I really couldn't pinpoint it! My over controlling personality was frustrated with that to say the least! Always wanting to be one step ahead of myself ready to deal with whatever may be waiting ahead...nope, I oh so ungracefully walked smack dab into a proverbial emotional 'brick wall'! As I was trying to get myself back up, dust myself off, and tend to my bruised parts I realized that all I thought I had dealt with wasn't.

Dealing with all that once more to truly rid myself of the baggage was frightening to me. It's all stuff that I felt I had addressed and was done with. But I realized that putting in a box and away in the "junk closet/drawer" never to be open or seen again, isn't dealing with IT! It's just there looming and waiting to be handled (hopefully before the door busts open off its hinges). Facing and dealing with emotions fully and entirely is hard but not as hard as we make it to be. One of my favorite authors (Geneen Roth) addresses this point. Facing and dealing with our emotions completely is far more satisfying then only partially doing so and never really letting them go, carrying them with us holds us down/back for what we are really capable of doing with our lives. I'm tired of being held back...told I can't do something when I know damn well that I can and will.

So on Sunday when I realized what I needed to do I literally shivered and pulled my covers over my head. I feared that facing those that I hadn't would 'suck' me back into that person that I was then...timid, self conscious, false confidence, etc. I've come so far and don't want to go back to being that person. But when I finally got up and walked passed my mirror, I stopped and looked. I finally was able to see my new body...the smaller me, the soon to be me that I've longed and worked so long to be. I knew at that point, that to get through this last push of loss I needed to work on my internal to match my external. I still feel a bit of tightness in my chest in thinking about what I'm taking on...but it's more than a want, it's a need! I've gone through SO much more and worse to this point that I've survived...I know I've got to making it out to be worse in my head then it actually will be.

That all being said...I can start to see the glimmer of light at the end of my tunnel. Yesterday, I took my first step in finally and fully clearing out my "emotional junk closet" and the man who matters most in my life was patient and open with me in my lingering self conscious reservations that I had--mostly self inflicted. But I needed full on raw honesty from him and I gave that back to him in return; allowing to ask any questions/concerns he had of me...not skimming the surface of our pasts where we had questions but really being honest about what happened. I immediately felt liberated of a part of my closet crap when we were done. And I felt it not after my questions to him were answered but after his questions of me were answered. I realized that it wasn't just a need I had lingering but he did too. Where my heart previously felt frigidly cold, he warmed it through from its core.

So, to wrap this all up (in a much prettier package than what it was for me) don't discount your past and just chalk it up to "it's in the past"...sometimes some of us really haven't dealt with it in its entirety and need to in order to move on with our lives. For those who struggle with weight, this may be the key to finding your success. The losing weight part is easy and quite scientific in reality. But we hold ourselves back from the success by not dealing with our baggage. I'm tired of dragging and want to run free! And with that, my inner goddess is back on her feet warming up with her usual sassy stretching routine--ready and raring to go!

-arh

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

KO'ing the Assumptions

I'm in the progress of breaking an old habit of making assumptions of what others are thinking about me.  It's held me back from too long and I have only myself to blame.  One may be quick to judge this comment that i've just made but take a second and think about the situations/interactions you have in your life...you may surprise yourself to find that you do this as well.

It's not just about what other physically see me as but how they judge me based on my actions, character, needs, etc.  Think about your relationship with your partner (or friends, well if they are great girlfriends like mine, they kinda can read my mind, often before I have--so maybe a family member instead) now how often do you find yourself getting frustrated by something they have/not done.  Did you actually clearly commincate to them what your needs were?  Did they properly comprehend what you communicated to them?  If not...guilty (just like me).  How about a trip to the gym (or outside, it's raining for me today so it's the gym today)...have you gone and thought more about what the other people around you are doing/thinking then what you are?  Again, guilty.  Being guilty isn't what you should be focusing on now, your eyes are open and your mind is aware now--act on it!  Be conscious of these thoughts.  When you have them do your best to Knock them Out!  It's not healthy!

This is my focus for the next month.  Keep my thoughts positive and about/of me!  Assuming what other's are thinking is of no benefit to anyone!  You'd be surprised what other's may be thinking when they are looking at you.  I've started boxing recently and when people walk up/by me they actually compliment me on my training, not critize me or think 'what's with the "big girl" trying to box?'  Quite the contrary, I have had (recently) a few men compliment me on my right hook--THANK YOU!!!  LOL

If you are going to assume other's thoughts, at least make them positive.  But even better, stop the assuming period.  In relationships we/I often get caught up by assuming my partner (I don't do this anymore) thinks I'm fat or unattractive when in reality they think I'm hot!  Think of it like the movie Shallow Hal...sounds kind of bad, but think about it, Jack Black's character see's this hot chick whom he falls head over heels for when in reality she is overweight.  If the person really loves you, you physical appearance isn't in their forefront.  If you don't like your physical appearance, then do something about it for you.  Again keeping it positive--instead of "lose weight" how about "tone up"?  I said that from the get go...I knew that there was muscle somewhere under all this fluff and now I'm starting to see it!  I hadn't felt my ribcage when taking a deep breath in for A LONG time (even laying down, sad I know) but now, just standing up and breathing normally I see my figure!

Stop the negative thought, get out of your own way so you can achieve the goals you want to achieve!  It's like that song....accencuate the positive, eliminate the negative!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gc5-bP-QGSI

-arh

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

I'm Back!

Last week gave me a real taste of reality... new school module and rainy weather.  Not to mention the normal routines of work, kids, home, sleep... and oh wait, still working on new healthy eating and exercising habits, and training for my race in May.  WHEW!  Needless to say, I was not able to get in even one good run last week, and was introduced to some new workouts (Insanity anyone?  ugh!) and new insight.

Yesterday I was all set to run after work... couldn't wait to leave because my legs just wanted to hit the pavement.  Got to my destination, rushing because the sun was setting soon, and WHAM!  Hello windy wind... FAIL.  I can run in wind, but this was ridiculous.  I lost my mojo, and went home in a slump.... as Dr. Seuss says in Oh the Places You'll Go!, "un-slumping yourself isn't much fun."  I went home, lost total focus, made a sandwich, and then went to Sports Authority to shop for a shirt for an upcoming 5K this weekend.  I just needed to get out, and clear my head... life caught up to me in that first gust of wind.  I realized later last night that I was in a transition from having a great weekend with my kids to going back to being home alone.  Reality... she really can sneak up when you're not paying attention.  So I gave in to my slump.... did some de-cluttering in silence, and didn't try to focus on one thing.  I am officially a week behind on reading for school, but will make up for that quickly.  I was grateful for my CI conference call with a great group of ladies... I felt comforted in just sitting back and listening to their stories and understanding that I am not alone, and reminding myself that I don't always have to say something, or have to have something to say; that sometimes the best thing I can do for myself is Just BE.  I forgave myself of what felt like a workout fail, and went to bed.

TODAY.... alarm (2 alarms actually) went off, and I was out of bed.  I didn't jump out, but I got out, and got to it.  Washed my face, brushed my teeth and hair, threw on my workout clothes... and I could hear the wind outside. GRRRR!  Nope, gotta do it (at least that's what I was telling myself).  Then the light bulb went off... treadmill at work, woo hoo!  So I hurried some more... made my lunch (tuna w/tomatoes/cucumber on salad greens, yogurt/berries for a snack, and baby carrots/cauliflower for another snack, oh and an apple and a banana.  Don't forget the coffee and 2 huge bottles of water!)  Grabbed my stuff and shot out the door... YES!  25 minutes on the treadmill with hill intervals, and a 15-minute core workout w/my Nike Fit Club app, and I'm back on track again.  Nothing like reality hitting me, and me hitting back with a little "YES I CAN!"

mc/mv

Friday, February 24, 2012

Train Your Brain Before You Train Your Body

Very interesting read.

Ironman champ: Train your brain, then your body


By Chrissie Wellington, Special to CNN
February 21, 2012 -- Updated 2141 GMT (0541 HKT)

Chrissie Wellington competes during the Challenge Roth triathlon in July in Roth, Germany.
Chrissie Wellington competes during the Challenge Roth triathlon in July in Roth, Germany.
STORY HIGHLIGHTS
  • Chrissie Wellington: Mental fortitude needed to overcome fear, pain and discomfort
  • Four-time World Ironman champ writes mantra on her water bottle and on her race wristband
  • Keep mental images handy to recall during a race, the triathlete suggests
Editor's note: Chrissie Wellington is a four-time World Ironman champion. She won her fourth title in 2011 after sustaining serious injuries only two weeks before the race. Her autobiography, "A Life Without Limits,"is set to be released Thursday in the UK. It will come out in the United States on May 15.
(CNN) -- Training for a race is like riding a roller coaster -- you experience highs and lows, ups and downs, and more peaks and troughs than the New York Stock Exchange.
Two weeks before I raced at the World Ironman Championships in Kona, Hawaii, last year, I had a bad bike crash. I won the race, not on physical prowess, but on grit, willpower, determination and mental strength.
I hope I showed, through my performance there, that sporting success rests, in part, with having the mental fortitude necessary to overcome our fears, pain and discomfort.
But how does one develop that strength? Is it innate, or can it be learned?
I believe it is the latter. We can all train our brains to be as strong as our bodies.
It sounds simple, but it's so easy to forget. If we let our head drop, our heart drops with it. Keep your head up, and your body is capable of amazing feats. To plunder the words of Kareem Abdul-Jabbar, "Don't ever forget that you play with your soul as well as your body."
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The message is this: All the physical strength in the world won't help you if your mind is not prepared. This is part of training for a race -- the part that people don't put in their logbooks, the part that all the monitors, gizmos and gadgets in the world can't influence.
But how do you train your brain to help you achieve your goals? I don't profess to have all, or many, of the answers. But in the five years that I have been a professional triathlete, I have learned a few techniques that help me keep mind over matter and ensure that I can ride the roller coaster of sporting success:
Have a mantra and/or a special song to repeat
Wellington celebrates winning last year\'s Challenge Roth triathlon with a new long-distance world record.
Wellington celebrates winning last year's Challenge Roth triathlon with a new long-distance world record.
I write my mantra on my water bottle and on my race wristband. Seeing it gives me a boost and reminds me never to let my head or heart drop.
If you use a permanent marker, be prepared for the wording to stay there long after the race has ended (and that you might receive strange looks from colleagues when you return to work with "I am as strong as an ox" tattooed on your arm).
I also carry a dog-eared copy of Rudyard Kipling's famous poem "If" everywhere I go. I believe the lines of this poem encapsulate the qualities necessary to become a successful athlete and a well-rounded person. Reading it before a race gives me the confidence to pursue my dreams.
Keep a bank of positive mental images
These images can be of family and friends, of previous races, of beautiful scenery, or a big greasy burger.
Draw on these images throughout the race, and especially if you feel the "I am tired. I want to stop. Why did I enter this race? I must be mad" doubts creeping into your mind.
Deliver these negative thoughts a knockout punch before they have the chance to grow and become the mental monster that derails your entire race.
Practice visualization beforehand
In training, when traveling, while sleeping or at work, this is the simple act of closing your eyes (although I don't recommend doing this at a work meeting or while on your bike). Relax your mind and go through each stage of the race one step at a time -- mentally imagining yourself performing at your peak but also successfully overcoming potential problems.
Before Michael Phelps has even entered the water, he has already completed the race in his mind. And won.
You can draw on the visual images (the finish line), the feelings you experience (energy surges) or the sounds you hear (roars of the crowd). That way when you race, you have the peace of mind and confidence that you have already conquered the challenges.
Break the race up into smaller, more manageable segments
Wellington, with Fit Nation participant Denise Castelli, says sporting success rests with having mental fortitude.
Wellington, with Fit Nation participant Denise Castelli, says sporting success rests with having mental fortitude.
I always think of the marathon as four 10 kilometer races with a little bit more at the end.
You might think only about getting to the next aid station, or lamppost or Porta Potty and, from there, set another landmark goal.
Stay in the moment and don't think too far ahead. I also try to breathe deeply and rhythmically; if you calm your breath, you can help calm your mind.
Remember that training is about learning to hurt
Push your physical limits and overcome them in training sessions, so that when you race you know that you have successfully endured pain and discomfort.
You will draw confidence and peace of mind from this knowledge.
Get people to support you
Some people thrive on the support from their family and friends, while others perceive it as added pressure.
Work out what feels right for you, and if necessary, invite friends, family or pets to come and cheer you on. Have them make banners, wear team T-shirts and generally behave in a way that would get them arrested under normal circumstances.
Mentally recall inspirational people
I recall people who have all fought against adversity to complete the Ironman. These people prove that anything truly is possible.
You might want to consider dedicating each mile to a special person in your life. That makes the discomfort easier to bear and will help give you a mental and physical boost.
Consider racing for a cause that is bigger than yourself
For me, it is to establish a platform on which to spread important messages and be a patron for charitable causes. These force me to put the race in perspective and rise to greater heights.
Champions come and go, but to me the real judge of my personal success will be whether I actually do something positive with the opportunities I have been given.
I really hope that, as four-time world champion, I can be a role model and ambassador for the sport that everyone can be proud of.
I hope that these tips provide some of that sporting gold dust, and enable you to have the race you have always dreamed of.
We will all continue to endure the downs and the dark times, but remember that it is overcoming these that makes the success all the more sweeter.
In the words of the great Muhammad Ali: "Success is not achieved by winning all the time. Real success comes when we rise after we fall. Some mountains are higher than others. Some roads steeper than the next. There are hardships and setbacks but you cannot let them stop you. Even on the steepest road you must not turn back".
You might not always have the perfect day, but with the right mental training hopefully the roller-coaster ride will be one to remember. Just remember to celebrate with that huge plate of greasy burger! Good luck!

http://edition.cnn.com/2012/02/21/health/chrissie-wellington-triathlete-champion/index.html

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

And it all came crashing down....

I believe I jinxed myself today while I was driving home from work and felt this great sense of confidence that came over me as I thought about my very packed schedule for this week. I remember thinking the exact words "I feel so confident and ready, I hope it lasts..." Sort of like the excitement Mr. Wonka felt waiting for all the pressure to build up underneath Augustus...


Thought I'd add at least a little humor to this situation turned sour.

I come home hoping to succeed through the biggest challenge I face in life which I cannot disclose, but man, the issues that come from it can deteriorate my mood so fast that it takes most of my energy to gain back just an ounce of positivity. God usually takes care of the rest. But geez, if this is growth, it sure is taking some time to even notice that things are getting better. I guess that's where faith comes in?

Yes, it'll always get better, but not before it all comes crashing down. I guess that's the beauty of succeeding.

Ah well...another day gone, another day to try harder.

Cheers (with a glass of water),

Q

Monday, February 13, 2012

Setback?

Okay, so maybe I won't call it a setback... I had a good week last week.  From Saturday 2/4 to Saturday 2/11, I got in 2 good runs, a Zumba workout at home, and lost a pound or so just from sticking to just my fruits/veggies, minimal carbs, and enough protein to get me through the day.  I'm trying to keep the "No Excuses" mentality in mind, and to Keep Moving!  Soooo.... last night I was all set.  I went to bed early because I was telling myself that when that clock went off at 4:45am, it would be no excuses... get up and workout!  Oh how I need to have a serious talk with Mr. Snooze Button.  I didn't get up... I snoozed for an hour, and got up, got dressed, and headed to work.  I was tired.  Plain and simply tired.  Why didn't I get a good night's rest?  I don't know what happened, but I was tossing and turning and it sabotaged my early morning appointment with myself. 

It feels like a slight setback, but it's only Monday, so I won't beat myself up totally.  I'm just wondering... how the heck to I keep that commitment to myself, when at 5am, the only one I have to nudge me out of bed is me, my dog, and my alarm clock?  LOL... funny thought, but it's something I'm trying to figure out.

mrv

Monday, February 6, 2012

Keeping this feeling...

 I'm keeping this feeling of slight defeat, regret and a little disappointment in my workout today. The weekend was quite a test of will-power. I attended a company buffet banquet at a BBQ restaurant on Friday, visited the parentals on Saturday (where there's always an opportunity for good eats), and headed over to the Fiance's grandmother's for SuperBowl Sunday (SuperBowl Sunday food plus American grandmother's cookin' is double the temptation!)

Although I was able to workout for a bit Saturday night, I still felt a set-back during today's workout (more sluggish, tight muscles, cramping, winded). For a moment it kind of felt like I was back at square one, like my buddy Simon Pegg:




I realized it wasn't just the Friday and Sunday breaks I took from physical activity, but disorienting my eating habits altogether. Not that having an occasional french fry or ice cream is super bad, but throughout the past month I started developing a good and comfortable eating schedule and started developing some good eating habits as well; portioning out my main meals, eating snacks in between, basically eating every 2-3 hours, and not eating anything after 7:30pm every night. It's great really, and it wasn't so much of a chore or hard to keep up with. I had the right foods in my fridge and pantry, and all I had to do was grab and go when I was in a rush. I tell ya, I realized healthy foods are not so much more expensive than junk food either. A three dollar bag of chips costs the same as 3 whole cucumbers, or 1 bag of carrot sticks, or 3 pounds of bananas. And there's always something healthy on sale every week at the grocer's.

What's difficult about the beginning to this all is the lifestyle change itself. It isn't hard to keep up with now, but that first couple weeks I bought new produce I didn't know what to do with. So I improvised and did some research (thank you Lord for online recipes and WebMD!). Learned about seasonal products (since they are usually cheaper because of their abundance), and started getting involved with others who wanted to live healthier (co-workers, a Facebook Biggest Loser group, and this own final project group for grad school). I think the reason why this is becoming very effective for me is because I'm doing this with others. Giving support is, I believe is so awesome, probably more than getting the support. I love hearing success stories and improvements by others and I love encouraging and keeping up spirits. Philippians 2:3-4 says "Let nothing be done through selfish ambition or conceit, but in lowliness of mind let each esteem others better than himself. Let each of you look out not only for his own interests, but also for the interests of others."

So I'm keeping this feeling of a minor defeat, but letting it help drive me towards a better tomorrow, and looking to others for inspiration, and hopefully, through this, maybe giving some inspiration as well. It's really about your own pace. Encourage others and you will be encouraged to do good as well!!

Cheers (with a glass of water!) to a healthy lifestyle!
- Quinallison

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

No More Excuses

...well, at least that's what I'm trying to hum to myself all day. I hear the words in my head, but I don't feel like the rest of me (mind and body) are buying it quite yet.

My day started off with an internal conversation I was having... I managed to get up shortly after my alarm went off, with the intention of packing my kids clothes for the day, and working on a school post. All was accomplished, and I felt really good for FINALLY being able to get up when I wanted to. And so the conversation in my head began... Mostly questions, but an AH-HA resulted from it.

Me to Self: "Why haven't you been able to do this [getting up early] lately? Why is running the only thing you will make time to do, when you actually WANT to make time for exercise? Why has my motivation been external in the past, i.e., training for a raise, trying to lose weight to look good, keeping up with my friends, etc.? Why should I workout and get healthy now? Who am I doing this for?"

The line of questions churned in my mind through my morning routine, and by the time I was out of the shower (where many of moments of clarity happen!), I heard the words in my head: NO MORE EXCUSES. No more being too tired... no more too much work to get to my goal... no more being unhappy with what I see in the mirror. Just NO MORE. In that moment, I realized the reason why I have trained for so many races in the last year or more. It is because even though I am not a big fan of race training, the commitment I have made to entering the race (paying the registration is a big one!) has been a driving force behind keeping me going. That sense of accomplishment when I log miles and feel that I'm getting somewhere was a good motivation.

I discovered that I have been creating barriers around myself that are keeping me from exercising. I have been so worried about getting anxious with overloading my plate, that the one thing that keeps my anxiety down is what has been sacrificed. So with that... I decided this morning that I am going to pick one of the MANY races I have had my eye on for this year, and register. I need something to work towards, and if this is what it takes, then so be it. I didn't register for races because I was afraid between work, school, and kids, training would just be too much. But I know that I need this... and that I don't have to win a gold medal, even if I walk part of any race. The point is just to FINISH..... but first, I've got to START.

mrv ;-)

Friday, January 27, 2012

The Power of Perseverance

As I was reading Bob Gass this morning, I found his devotional to be applicable to our journey of attaining and maintaing a healthy lifestyle.

Enjoy...
 
“Let us not grow weary while doing good.” Gal 6:9 NKJV
                                                  
                                                 THE POWER OF PERSEVERANCE
One of the great themes of the Bible is- perseverance. Paul, who refused to quit, wrote: “Let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.” Ralph Waldo Emerson said, “The great majority of men are bundles of beginnings.” Are you merely a starter, or are you also a finisher? When the enthusiasm for a new idea fades, when the odds against you increase and the results diminish, when it looks as if success is impossible, you must keep forging ahead. Admiral Robert Peary attempted to reach the North Pole seven times before he finally succeeded. Oscar Hammerstein produced five shows on Broadway that were flops before staging Oklahoma, which was seen by almost five million people during a record-breaking run of 2,212 performances. Quitting is more about who you are, than where you are or what you’re up against. We all have our excuses. The truth is, external things don’t stop us; it’s what happens to us on the inside! Most of us stop ourselves from reaching our potential. We can pretend that people, things, and situations outside of ourselves are to blame, but in reality most failures are just the result of a lack of bulldog-like tenacity. Leonardo da Vinci said, “Obstacles cannot crush me. Every obstacle yields to stern resolve. He who is fixed on a star, does not change his mind.” You must have a mindset to tenaciously pursue your dream. The only guarantee for failure is to stop trying. There is no insurmountable barrier, except your own inherent lack of purpose and persistence.

All my love,
LJ

Thursday, January 26, 2012

The Front Office Challenge

This was typed at work today, but I never got a chance to post it in our blog!

Thursday, January 26, 2012
01:13:58 PM

Funny how things work.... just this morning, I hit the snooze button on my alarm clock for a good hour before I finally got out of bed.  Consequently, I was running late.  I got the kids dropped off, and got to work on time.  While driving to work, I couldn't help but think about how my old morning routine has been completely thrown off course over the last year.  Most of my life, I was always that person that always had a desire to be able to wake up at 5am to get a good workout in before work.  But I felt like I was never wired that way... I love my sleep and have never been good at getting out of bed in the morning.  I'm not exactly one of those people that can immediately open my eyes and spring out of bed the moment the alarm goes off.  OH how I wish I could!  Anyways, so when I started my Masters' program last year, I needed that extra hour in the morning to get my school work done.  Funny how work or school work can motivate me to get out of bed at 5am, but exercising does not.  I've noticed since the holidays that my alarm still goes off at 4:45, but I haven't been getting up any earlier than 5:30a on some days, and it's getting worse.  I've lost track of my purpose for getting up that early to begin with.  When I wasn't getting up to study, I was packing my bag, and heading to work early to go for a run.  It felt great!  Granted, with the dark winter mornings, this has not been happening.

So the concern I was feeling this morning was.... after wanting to be able to get up at 5am for so long, how to I get motivated to get my body clock back in gear, before I completely lose it!  I think I got my answer.  I was approached by my colleague, and she asked me to join a team for our "Front Office Challenge" here at work.  The Front Office Challenge is a fitness challenge, in which employees form teams to exercise, log their minutes, in an effort to "beat" the front office.  The Front Office is our facility's Executive team, including the hospital Director, Deputy Director, Chief of Staff, Nurse Executive, and a few other head honchos.  When my colleague first approached me, she asked, "Michelle, have you been exercising lately?" to which I answered, "no, I haven't found the time."  She convinced me to join, and I heard myself say, "this may be the motivation I need to get back in gear." 

What is it about being committed to others that helps us stay more motivated at exercising, eating well, and all other measures of being healthy?  Why is trying this on my own so much harder?  Shouldn't I, myself, be motivation enough???  Funny how things work....

mv/mc

Healthy Lifestyle Transition Woes...

I almost had a relapse this morning. I woke up feeling blue. I was overwhelmed by my emotions, what I have to do, What I need to do, and what I am not doing plus everything in between. I woke up embittered by the last 25 pounds that I want to lose.  It was one of those mornings where I was constantly berating myself for my recent lack of exercise and poor food choices. Ironically, the more I beat myself up, the more I started eating. Counter-productive, right? Yeah, I know! So, it is time to put my big girl panties on, stop complaining, and do something!

After a few hours of self-loathing, I decided to embrace the knowledge that I am strong, capable, and living a healthy life is not just achievable for everyone else, but it is very possible for me too. I must move past my feelings, because they have never helped the numbers on the scale go down, nor does it produce a healthier lifestyle for me, per se. However, my belief in God, courage, and determination will afford me a healthier way of living :-)

Signed with Kisses,
LJ

Spiritual Vitality

I thought I would share with you a powerful affirmation that I often use when I am focusing on health and fitness by Mary Murray Shelton:

Vibrant life flows through every cell of my body.
All the organs, actions, and functions of my body are working in perfect harmony.
I love this body, and I feel its aliveness and sparkling vitality.

This speaks to the the messages (that Karen was referring to during our call with her) that we give ourselves that affects our body and how we approach life. I use nourishing thoughts as affirmations to start my day for this reason.

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Another FTW!!!

Quinallison's upgrade:

Mixed greens, tuna, grape tomatoes, garbanzo beans, olives, a pinch of McCormick's Salad Seasoning, and a bit of Newman's Own Olive Oil and Vinegar =D


I'm getting more and more excited as I embark on creating yummy salad dishes. I never knew how versatile and fun putting my own salad together could be. And I never knew how delicious it would actually be either! I'm enjoying this now as I type!

I never craved salads. Except for when I used to work in the Financial District of SF and Mixt Greens was down the street from my job (mouth-watering!). For me it was always the usual: ceasar, greek, cobb, but putting together my own condiments gives me that wondrous feeling of how different and good it will taste, and what wonders it will be doing for this temple of a body!

It's hard going back to salad when you've been away cheating on the foods that you know gives you that immediate satisfaction but cannot fill that need, kinda like having that type of relationship with the person that keeps leavin' ya for someone else and then coming back! No more being your Part Time Lover junk food!


Cheers (with a glass of water) to a healthy lifestyle!

- Quinallison

Monday, January 23, 2012

This Says it All....




mc/mv

My Mind. My Body.

I noticed I've had so many questions swirling around in my head the last week or so.  And they all start with "Why?"  Why do I have so much trouble staying motivated?  Why do I NOT get motivated when I see some of my closest friends reaching new depths with their physical and nutritional fitness? 

I had two instances in the last week that really had me thinking about our inquiry, and made me focus on my own reactions and thoughts/feelings about what I was encountering.  The first was one day on FaceBook.  I "Liked" a new page that a girlfriend of mine was promoting for her friend, and turns out that it was another acquaintance of mine.  The page had to do with being inspired to be physically fit, weight loss goals, etc.  As I started reading some of the posts about "Thanks for the inspiration.  I lifted a 100 lb kettle bell today!" or "This is great!  My 7 mile run is going to lead to a marathon!"  I couldn't help but cringe!  And it wasn't because doing those activities sound horrible to me, but just the fact that I know some of these people, and was slightly jealous of their accomplishments.  Terrible as it sounds, I have to admit that I felt like this so I can figure out why I felt this way.  As a friend, I know I should just be happy, but I think part of me is slightly resentful of the fact that I used to be that super-fit person.  Why have I let so much of my life get in the way of getting healthy and fit, and how do I get that motivation back?

The second incident was when I had a conversation with a relative of mine.  She was diagnosed with depression for about a year ago, and has dealt with weight issues as a result of the medication she's been taking.  We talked about some of the things that were uncovered in her therapy sessions, and how there is so much hurt and anger she has been holding inside over the course of her lifetime.  This really triggered some thoughts in my own mind, and forced me to start reflecting on how some of my own experiences have caused me to hold in ill feelings as well.  I'm wondering if tapping into some of this "stuff" that's locked up inside is what is literally weighing me down from being more active.

mc/mv

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

Break Thru Moment

I guess I shouldn't be surprised--even after 90 lbs down--I still have these "aha" moments (has Oprah trademarked that yet, sorry if she did). This one I had when I least suspected it--again, I don't think I should have been surprised by that either.

I was in class this weekend and we were in the middle of a discussion regarding an activity we had just done. A classmate of mine (who also happens to be one of my best friends) made a comment, indirectly in response to mine. She said something along the lines of it had to do with the way she was raised and that she was raised to know that she was worth/deserving of the best (I don't want to put words in her mouth but that's what I comprehended it as). It wasn't a malicious or egotistical statement on her part at all. It made a lot of sense actually--our parent(s) want the best for us and do their best to instill that way of thinking in us. It establishes a sense of self worth. Initially I thought to myself--well my parents didn't teach me to not think that I wasn't worthy....but then I stopped. My reaction wasn't about whether or not my parents didn't raise me well--they did a great job. But at some point I got wrapped up into my own thoughts/views of myself and I began to think that I wasn't deserving. I thought/felt I wasn't deserving because of my weight. Looking back I know I was a healthy weight and just a tall kid (which is why I physically "stuck out") but then I saw being a "big kid" = being a fat kid. Which, as a teenager, grew into "I'm fat, so I don't deserve to have a boyfriend." This continued through my college years and (I recently realized) into my young adult years. My "I'm fat = I don't deserve" haunted me until Sunday when my friend made her comment and I had my epiphany. I was instantly taken back to these moments when I couldn't understand why I didn't get something that I thought I deserved and I realized that it was because I developed the mindset of "I don't deserve it because I'm fat."

WRONG! You (and I) deserve anything that you/I rightly work to earn--whether that's a compliment, a raise, a new car, a weight loss, etc. I now understand why I never take compliments, b/c I never thought I deserved them. I now understand why I absorbed and held onto all the negative in my life--b/c I thought I deserved it.

This is coming from a woman who's always (I think so) stood confidently in her beliefs, values, and individuality. But what I realized that day was that it wasn't my parent's fault or wrong doing and that I deserve anything that I rightfully and honestly strive for!

I had more "ahas" that day as we followed that discussion up with a guided meditation--I realized that I have a whole "junk drawer/closet" of things I need to address/face still. It's those things that we put aside and say that we'll get to it later. Then later comes and goes and it all begins to pile up, we stick it somewhere that's around but out of sight. I know that I carry stuff about my mom's passing still, about my childhood, about jobs I've had/lost/never had, about a lot of things. Just when you think you've cleaned up you remember that proverbial junk drawer--well now is the time to either deal with it or continue to carry the burden. That day I decided to start to deal with it. Create the keep, dump, donate piles and move up and on with life--my life!

I post this here b/c we need to realize that those items weigh more than we think. They add on LBS just like a pint of Ben & Jerry's can. In fact, more often than not, they are the reason we turn to Ben & Jerry instead of the issue itself. I'm not advising you take on the whole drawer today--but open it, take a good look at it, and decide what you will pull out to work on first. It will make a HUGE difference.

Friday, January 13, 2012

Good decision FTW!

Quinallison here with my first blog for my Collaborative Inquiry group at St. Marys' Masters in Leadership program! I'm excited to post a pretty awesome last minute creation of a salad I made today at work! Here's the scoop...

Tuna, grape tomatoes, and celery (and a bit of pepper and salt). Bon appetit Q!

As simple and as common sense this may be to a regular cook, I'm pretty proud of this last minute concoction upon arrival to my office. I wasn't feeling all too well this morning so I stayed in for a bit to make sure I wasn't pushing myself to hard since I was having some health issues this past week. Time was flying by and I had to make an 11:30 appointment. Halfway through my trip I realized I forgot to bring my leftovers to have for lunch today. Bah!!

When I got back to the office I started working and thinking about what can I quick grab around here to munch on. I needed something a bit hardy since tonight is hockey night, and fueling my system is essential! However I couldn't leave the office right away since I needed to catch up on a few things and once I get into a working groove I can't stop till I'm done.

I knew I had a few things in the fridge: tomatoes, celery and cottage cheese. In my drawer I had a can of tuna, a can of garbanzo beans, pita chips and peanut butter. I usually like celery and peanut butter for a snack so I thought I'd save that for later. I wondered if just having plain tuna, tomatoes and celery would work? So I tried it and voila, a very nice healthy, light but surprisingly filling dish of a simple salad. I never knew I could mix such ingredients like that! Mind you, I'm only a rookie cook!

I would have added garbanzo beans but I thought to save that for another salad day. I still have more celery sticks which I'll be snacking on with a bit of peanut butter later, yum. I'm hoping to keep up this trend of  healthy eating. Don't get me wrong, I won't stray away from the junk food I love, but I do want to keep that consumption at a minimum. If more healthy food consumption can outweigh (pahdump pump!) junk food consumption, I can be a happy camper!

Probably the most challenging obstacles for me is emotional eating, cravings, and gluttony (sinful!!!). I can be gluttonous when it comes to eating something that is sooooooooo sooooo yummy, and when I crave something, my mood will not be as good until I have it. Fortunately joining my CI group will help me to overcome these problems and allow me to make better choices and eliminate being materialistic with food!

Cheers (with a glass of water) to a healthy lifestyle!

- Q